The People in The Trees
NOTE: INSANITY AHEAD: A short, totally CRAZYPANTS story I wrote in 2003 – in the midst of my addiction – about The Tree People. If you don’t know what Tree People are, consider yourself very, very...
View ArticleBathtub Angels
Years of experience have taught me that my crystal binges can be paused only by one or more of the following reasons: running out of product, a spiral into full psychosis due to sleep deprivation, or...
View ArticleMy First Monster
“I’m writing a letter to each person that I have offended sexually in the past. I do want to apologize to them. But I don’t want that to be just a simple statement. I think that they…basically, what...
View ArticleWHITE BOY ON TOP OF THE WORLD
I’m hunched up on the hillside next to our house, fully enclosed by the long, thorny vines of the giant Bougainvillea, their purplish flowers dotting my field of vision. The morning sunlight...
View ArticleNight of the Vesuvian Pussy
I’ve heard it said that idleness is the Devil’s Playground, and if that was true I was about to make a mad dash for the swingset. I had been working at least 40 hours a week since I was thirteen …...
View ArticleTrojan Choker
writers note: this entry was written in 2004, closer to the beginning of my addiction to crystal meth, when I was still capable of writing – sort of – while using. Why do I seek the companionship of...
View ArticleMachete, Moonlight, Madness: part one
I drop the curtain, and reflexively retrieve the pipe and torch from the bedside drawer and take another deep hit. I replace it, and quickly move to the window on the north side of the house, yanking...
View ArticleVIDEO: Room 233
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wOrQWrFpFUQ A piece about one of the darkest days of my meth addiction, as read to a hundred strangers at the storytelling show "Taboo Tales," 8/30/2011 at the Zephyr...
View ArticleSober Musical Interlude #1
If you follow this blog (and thank you SO much if you do) you know that I write dark, depressing stuff full of angst and anger and, well, as my husband puts it: “meth, death and bated breath.” The...
View Article‘The Advocate’ of Total Bullshit
This is something that has been bothering my conscience for a long, long time. For eight years and one month, to be precise. Late in 2004, my then-partner (now husband) Patrick – a minor celebrity of...
View ArticleMy Jesus Looks Like Jean-Paul Belmondo
A long time ago, when I was very young, Jesus was my closest friend. I went to church every Sunday: first at Christ the King in Commack, New York, and later, after moving to California at the age of...
View ArticleLife and Death at Three Thirty Three
NOTE: At the end of this month, it will be eighteen years since I lost one of the best friends i’ve ever had. Even though so much time has passed and so many wonderful – and truly awful – things …...
View ArticleDear Kira
Last night my niece sent me a chat message on Facebook, asking how she should respond to a schoolmate who is opposed to gay marriage based on..get this..the belief that allowing gay people to get...
View ArticleBeware the Deviant Heterosexual
I am in crisis. Not only am I apprehensive about the future of our society, I am downright sickened and revolted by what has been going on right under my nose my entire life. Heterosexuals are NOT the...
View ArticleTwo Anniversaries
Last week my husband and I celebrated the third anniversary of our wedding on April 12, 2010, in Old Greenwich, Connecticut. Attended by friends and family and filled with laughter and tears, April 12...
View ArticleTesting Grace
So, the personal wreckage cleanup begins again. Does anyone have a backhoe I can borrow for a few days…or weeks…perhaps months? I wonder how my husband tolerates this. I know there must be those...
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